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It has been raining for the past few days and one day it was raining quite hard and I got inspired to write a spoken word connecting the rain to my depression. Gloomy weather has it’s perks and it’s timing where I’m bit anxious than the usual.
It’s been awhile since I made a spoken word like this. I’ve been struggling with high anxiety last week of June. I’m bit okay now. I’m still functioning well but it sucks.
After being diagnosed as depressed, a bi-polar with anxiety panic disorder I am more sensitive and aware of people’s words and and how to react to me whenever they learned I’m depressed. I don’t let it get to me as much as I can because these people has less understanding of my situation.
So what am I to do about it?
This concept came about one day when me and a group of friends were at the mall and I did something really idiotic also known as me being a scatterbrain. Mind you, I am not really a scatter brain. I’m proud to say I have an organized mind and I don’t tend to lose train of thought or to do things that make people say “huh?”. However, things have changed ever since I started medicating my depression.
Anyway, going back, we were all laughing at the situation. It was really indeed funny and even I found it hilarious. I’ve already accepted the fact that I will be doing shits like this but it’s part of me now. A friend of mine took a pun of my nickname Sese and called me Sesilya or Cecilia in English and he said he would call me that everytime I do something lol-worthy-stupid-mistakes.
A lot of people assume a certain look on someone who is depressed or someone suffering from a certain mental illness. They think we constantly look “emo” or sad. Sometimes they don’t know that the one they are interacting with is someone who is suffering from a mental illness.
This is a very common scenario and this prompted me to do a spoken word about it.