This concept came about one day when me and a group of friends were at the mall and I did something really idiotic also known as me being a scatterbrain. Mind you, I am not really a scatter brain. I’m proud to say I have an organized mind and I don’t tend to lose train of thought or to do things that make people say “huh?”. However, things have changed ever since I started medicating my depression.
Anyway, going back, we were all laughing at the situation. It was really indeed funny and even I found it hilarious. I’ve already accepted the fact that I will be doing shits like this but it’s part of me now. A friend of mine took a pun of my nickname Sese and called me Sesilya or Cecilia in English and he said he would call me that everytime I do something lol-worthy-stupid-mistakes.
A lot of people assume a certain look on someone who is depressed or someone suffering from a certain mental illness. They think we constantly look “emo” or sad. Sometimes they don’t know that the one they are interacting with is someone who is suffering from a mental illness.
This is a very common scenario and this prompted me to do a spoken word about it.
Finally, I am able to share this with you all. Before I go and talk about what is in the video, let me just credit the people who helped me out in making this.
There is no easy way to say it. So I will be blunt about it. As I mentioned in my last blogpost about my mental illness, that I am seeing a psychiatrist for my depression. But didn’t you know there are different types or form of depression? When I was first diagnosed, I was diagnosed Major Depression. I underwent hypnotherapy to get over it. When I relapsed this year, it progressed to early stage of Bi-Polar Depression Disorder.
My psychiatrist categorized me as a HIGH FUNCTIONING BI-POLAR. Meaning, that I can function like a normal average person. I look normal but behind that NORMALCY, I am suffering from a mental illness that I currently battling every day.
Yes, I am a high functioning Bi-Polar and there are some things I want you to know.
You might have an idea what this blog post about based on the title. You may or may not know. I kind of disappeared from social media especially in Facebook for more than a week. I did it for two major reasons. One of the reason was the one I given out to the public aka to the majority of the people who knows me online and that is: I am prepping up for a major project.