Weeks ago, I deactivated my main Facebook account. It was sudden and I became quiet. Like I didn’t tell anyone. I didn’t respond to people quickly to their queries why I did it. To be honest I was tempted not to reply at all. I was tempted not to speak at all. I was at that point that I just want to disappear from people.
When you see pictures of me like that, I know that you think I’m weird. Well, I’m an adult who dresses up as fictional characters. Of course I am weird.
A lot of people assume a certain look on someone who is depressed or someone suffering from a certain mental illness. They think we constantly look “emo” or sad. Sometimes they don’t know that the one they are interacting with is someone who is suffering from a mental illness.
This is a very common scenario and this prompted me to do a spoken word about it.
Finally, I am able to share this with you all. Before I go and talk about what is in the video, let me just credit the people who helped me out in making this.
There is no easy way to say it. So I will be blunt about it. As I mentioned in my last blogpost about my mental illness, that I am seeing a psychiatrist for my depression. But didn’t you know there are different types or form of depression? When I was first diagnosed, I was diagnosed Major Depression. I underwent hypnotherapy to get over it. When I relapsed this year, it progressed to early stage of Bi-Polar Depression Disorder.
My psychiatrist categorized me as a HIGH FUNCTIONING BI-POLAR. Meaning, that I can function like a normal average person. I look normal but behind that NORMALCY, I am suffering from a mental illness that I currently battling every day.
Yes, I am a high functioning Bi-Polar and there are some things I want you to know.